The next couple of days I packed a bag and literally spent everyday with this man. Morning, noon, an night. What happens next is when I really found out this man cared about me.
So back to the guy that I was so called “in love with”…he convinced me to get on a plane to NYC because he finally got his shit together and we were gonna live happily ever after, so being the naive person I was I dropped everything and went. Even though things were going great with Jacob and I. I told Jacob I was going and he told me to go. Wasn’t mad at all. Guess he knew I was young and naive as well, so I got on the plane to NY that night not knowing what I was about to get myself into.
When I got to New York, I barley had any money on me and he told me that he would take care of everything. WRONG! When I got to the hotel he wouldn’t even give me money for the cab, so luckily I had enough to pay for it. (that should have been strike number one) Got to the room and all he was worried about was having sex. I didn’t wanna do that so he got mad and punched me in my face and started hitting me, left the room and I didn’t see him again that night. So now I’m stuck in New York with no money and no way to get home. No I didn’t call the cops because If I did I would have got arrested too (long story) so I called Jacob.
At first I was scared to call him but I did anyway and to my surprise he came to the rescue. He had his friend that lived in NY come get me, put me in another hotel, and got me a return ticket home. At that moment I knew he really cared for me as a person.
When I got back to Atlanta, I went to Athens, got all my things and I stayed with Jacob, literally LOL! I didn’t even ask him could I stay, I kind of just stayed. He didn’t say anything about it either LOL! So we were spending like every single day together, and we started to grow on each other!
As things started to get serious with us, I started to open up to Jacob and tell him about my past and all of the horrible things I’ve been through. Since he has a degree in Psychology he was a great listener and he didn’t judge me. He gained my trust and when I cried he told me it would be alright. I was damaged goods and he was helping me get through all the demons I’ve been dealing with for a long time. So first and foremost we are friends more than anything. I can tell him anything and he listens. My BFF LOL!
2010 - The first day he told me he loved me, I will never forget it. We were in NYC at this little place called Blue Moon. They had these little mini grills and I was so obsessed with taking it lol. Back to the story….so we were in Blue Moon having dinner sitting at the bar. I remember the bar tender complimented us on being a great looking couple. Then Jacob turned to me and said he loved me. It was the most beautiful thing ever. I’ve heard these words before but I knew he really meant it. From that moment on it was official between us, he was MINE!
2011 - The day my sex tape and naked pictures hit the net was the day I knew I would do anything for this man, literally. I was at home sleeping when all of sudden my phone started blowing up from everybody. The guy who I was telling y’all about before had sent my naked pictures and sex video I made for him to worldstarhiphop. He did that because he was upset that I had moved on without his sorry ass. When I first saw the video it didn’t really hit me, I thought it was a joke but it was indeed real. It was REAL as HELL because I was the number 1 trending topic in the world and everyone was talking about this video. I was so embarrassed and hurt and ashamed. Everyone who I thought was my friend turned on me and started judging me as if I was some kind of disease. No one understands how it feels to be humiliated to such a level like that until it happens to them.
In that moment the only person (besides my family) who was there for me was Jacob. I looked at him and we both sat on the floor and he let me cry on his shoulder. He held me tight and patted my back as I cried and cried. I know it crushed him to see me like that shit it was crushing me. My brother was fighting at school and my sister was getting picked on. My family was getting tormented because of my actions and that crushed me more than anything. Jacob wasn’t bothered by the fact of the video because he’s the one who told me it would happen once I started my modeling career. So he got me up, took me to see one of the best lawyers in Atlanta and within 30 minutes the video was down. Now that’s what a real man does….and for that I thank him for being by my side. Any other man would have left me there crying, only a real man deals with problems as such with his woman.
From that day things only got worse for me. I feel into a deep dark depression and tried to commit suicide by almost overdosing on hydrocodone pills. I had to be admitted into a mental hospital. They transported me there strapped to a bed like an animal. No phone, no clothes, no nothing just in a room with a bed with a bunch of crazy people FOREAL. I felt like I had reached a low point but once again Jacob was by my side. He came to see me everyday, he even tried to bribe the guards so that I could have my books, cellphone, and some snacks LOL. (still funny)
Now enough of the sad stuff. We’ve had some GREAT times together. Like the time he bought me a PS3 and I jumped up and down like a little kid in a candy store, and the time he took me on a date to Disney World for a day, I’m still happy about that, only Jacob does things like that, and my most recent date, he took me all the way to Paris on a date. There’s nothing we won’t do for each other, NOTHING. A lot of people may not understand our relationship and that’s fine, I don’t care. At the end of the day I don’t have to lay in bed with them, they don’t pay our bills so they don’t matter and that’s how we keep our relationship strong. We love and care about each other and that’s all that matters. We have great fun, great SEX (lol), great conversation and we live our lives the way WE we want too. When you and your partner have the understanding that nothing else matters but you too, then no one can pierce your relationship but God.
Now I can talk about our story for days and it would take pages and pages because our love story is still being written. Even through all of that Jacob still treated me like a queen. Even when I wasn’t doing right he still was there and that’s why I love him so much. He never judges me and is always my shoulder to cry on shall I need one. When I am wrong, he corrects me. I’ve learned so much from him. He’s helped me become the person I am right now, and I am so thankful for him. Together we are a team and nothing matters at the end of the day but us. Someone reading this will have something negative to say as always and that’s fine…It ain’t for everybody.
God puts people in our lives for a reason. I now understand why Jacob was brought to me. He was the angel I’ve been praying for, the hope and will I’ve been looking for. Angels really exist and he’s MINE LOL! I’m not perfect and I’ve never claimed to be. I’ve made a lot of mistakes that I’m not ashamed to take the responsibility for. So don’t give up hope. I know if I can find my prince charming with all of the baggage and problems I had, I know you can too. Hope you all enjoyed my story…now if that’s not a love story…I don’t know what it is.